Just one more month till I get to meet my baby girl. I'm excited, and glad to still be feeling good. I can usually avoid heartburn by eating a million small meals throughout the day, and nothing too rich. While I can't exactly bend over to reach things on the floor I have mastered the art of squatting, crawling and other ungraceful movements that get the job done. I went to the hospital birthing class which also includes a tour of the birthing rooms. Gosh they are small! Seems like hospitals have these HUGE hallways and tiny rooms, I think patients would enjoy reversing that. I don't like hospitals, and would rather be at home, but want to have medical interventions available if needed. Working on not letting other people's comments about my body bother me, but they still get to me. Generally people say I'm small, or I don't even look pregnant, for a big girl, this kind of makes me wonder if people have a mental image of me with a large belly so they don't notice the change, or makes me worry that my baby isn't growing fast enough, but the midwife keeps telling me I am measuring just right and my weight is on target. Just need to let go of other people's ideas, and trust in myself.
Realize that I have too much free time on my hand. I typically fill time with books or dvds, but still there is a lot of leftover time. I am trying to enjoy it and relax, knowing that soon I will never have alone time! But also realized that I'm lonely in this extra time. Talking to old friends helps, but still need to schedule more social activity. Part of the problem is my irritation level is constantly high. Coworkers drive me batty, kid's repetitive sounds drive me away, people's unwelcome body comments cause me to shut down. Feel like I'm shutting out the world again, guess I need to just communicate better to let people what I need, and be willing to apologize if I am short with folks.
People also asking if I have started contractions, but as I don't know what exactly these feel like, I don't think I have. I have tried to look for descriptions, but they all sound pretty vague. Occasionally feel a sharp cramp like feeling really low, but doesn't feel tense in my uterus at all. Oh well, guess I will figure it out when I need to.
Lots of disjointed thoughts, feel like this most nights when I'm trying to sleep.
